I'm feeling a bit down and I don't know why, which just makes it worse.

My mock exam results come out tomorrow, and maybe subconsciously that could be the reason.

I don't know what I'll do if I've failed, especially as I honestly did think the exam was easy-ish and I did work for it more this time.

Maybe I'm getting revision blues also, and unlike at A-Levels there's less support.
I haven't seen my friends in ages because we all live at different halls and due to the immense work pressure, people come to lectures less and socialise less.
It's so strange how at uni, not seeing someone for a few days seems like not having seen them for weeks.

My friend Sam is annoying me too, you know the one who I didn't want to live with. He'll call up and ask how much I've done and then brag about how much he has done or laugh when I say I'm finding something hard or haven't done something.

It's like for God's sake it's not a competition, good for you if you've done everything and your going to become the best doctor in the world.

He probably doesn't realise but it's really suffocating and annoying...and immature. And I don't function like that, I don't need someone laughing at me when I'm in a down situation...especially as I'd never do that to anyone else.


In other news, I went for coffee with the Medic Family on Tues which was good fun, good to catch up with them and laugh at the parents problems.
I'm so lucky to have really decent, funny people like them as parents, and they've helped us kids so much with advice and notes...I hope I get the opportunity to do that next year.


We have mice, or at least a mouse, in our uni kitchen. Well, judging by the state of it it was only a matter of time.
Even E. Coli find the place too dirty.


I had a great time over the bank holiday - it was CK's dad's 50th birthday so I went to Watford, and got to see my cousin from Canada who's so much fun.
I also met my cousin Dan who I've not seen in probably over a year, and it turns out he's in London now working near Fleet Street.
It was good to catch up, and I'll definately make the effort to meet up with him after the exams.


Well, I'd better get back to work. At least I now feel :-| instead of :-(
Hopefully the Apprentice will make me feel :-)

I'll probably give home a ring too, feel quite bad because I've been snapping at mum through stress a few times when she's rung previously.

It's just she keeps going on about our bathroom - which has been totally made over and looks amazing...but how am I meant to give my opinion if I'm all the way down here in the LDN and have only seen a picture of it?

My sister's in Shanghai on business so I'm missing her a bit.
I'm thinking of telling her something important about personal life stuff...but maybe I should put it off till after exams.


Arrgghh - nothing is ever just good enough is it. There's always a problem with something.
God can't something just go right for once.