Being bored is dangerous.

I'm trying not to endanger myself. So far so good. The internet isn't helping. It's too tempting to plunge into a fabricated world of 0s and 1s as a substitute of the world I'm missing. Living vicariously through others isn't cool either. Can't let that happen. I feel a bit out of touch even though I don't seem to be missing anything. The weather was good today. Actually had a bit of sun. I don't like being so cut off from everyone. I miss the countryside. I miss friends. Before they changed. And for some reason I seem to want to push away from others. I want to dye my hair again. And grow it. But first get it cut. I'm trying to make what I am into what I long for. It's wrong.I really need to take charge of my life. Be more independent. Take more risks. Stop wanting the comfort and then regretting it when it smothers me.