Now Thats Floor for Thought

Imagine if everything was upside down and we all walked on the ceiling and you had to step up to walk out of a room.

I've been lying on the floor for quite a while now.

I cant remember how i got here actually.

Dont worry, i didnt fall or anything, i am ok.
I just began thinking and cant be bothered to get up.
Im still on the floor as im writing now.

And its quite cool down here. You can see the bottom of desks and chairs and everything!
Everything from a new perspective. You should try it!

So what have i been thinking about?

Well obviously im ecstatic about my offer. Its such a relief. But i havent really been thinking about it much. October is ages away and im a believe-it-when-i-see it kind of person.

There is something wrong with me.

I dont think i can ever be happy. Its like i said in that post before. I am so so greatful and relieved about my offer but now the previous little thing in the back of my mind has returned (that being feeling a need to be in a relationship), and there is the little voice saying i still have to get the grades.

Now im thinking that the first worry will be sorted when i go to uni as there will be loads of new people to meet and im not meeting anyone new here at home at the moment.

However, what if its not that easy to achieve what im aiming to at uni? What if its not as easy as im assuming it will be? After all, why should it be? What if the reasons as to why nothing is happening here also apply there?

Hmmm...

Anyway, i better listen to the other little voice and get back to work...