Im fed up.

I cant concentrate on my revision. I dont feel motivated to do any work. And at the same time Im constantly feeling guilty about the lack of progress Im making, so feel obligated to sit here at my desk and do...nothing.

I hate holidays. I want to go back to school. As geeky as that sounds, I want to see my friends, and to have something to do. Three weeks off for Easter is much too long, especially when your imprisoned in your house under revision guilt.

I feel angry and upset also. With life. I know that is a really stupid thing to say, because I have so much good stuff going for me. And everything is going good. On the surface.
Inside however, underneath that, Im aching a little.

Sometimes I hate being half of one thing and half of another. I know it could be worse, but I cant help thinking that Im juggling to halves of nothing.
I guess Im just tired of this underlying feeling of being lonely and in the dark...

Oops! Im going to have to end this here, I've lost track of thought after having listened to Smiley Faces - Gnarls Barkley.
That track is so deep. The lyrics are amazing.