Revision induced boredom + Hadouken! + an array of Stabilo Boss sticks =

I ran out of blue high-lighters, how ironic.

Just 8 days till I'm free to make my customised H! t-shirt,
just 10 days till I see them live

Feeling the burn

These exams are the hardest thing I've ever, ever had to do.

I could never have imagined how hard this was going to be.

I've had insomnia because of exams before, and the obvious stress-rages, but today I was so stressed, pressured, and worried that I rang home in search of comfort.
Then from nowhere, mid conversation with my mum about their plans for the weekend, I just burst into tears.

I guess I was feeling a little homesick, especially whilst under so much pressure, with the hardest exams ever in less than a weeks time, and with just so much to know.

It felt good to let it all out, and I feel better now, but It's a reminder, that no matter how old you are, or where your life takes you, home will always be like a womb.

The funniest thing since Goodness Gracious Me...

You know you're at MedSchool when you last lecture was shit...literally!

I bet this will get you thinking the next time you go for a number two.



Still, it is all necessary, after all...

Last year's Summer dance anthem - David Guetta vs. The Egg. No doubt about it.

Well, I've just stumbled across this years...

Remember Lisa Maffia? She told you she was a soldier...and we thought her career was all over, all over?

Well she's back and has laced the vocals on Dave Spoon's - At Night to produce an amazing house track, that is so walking in the footsteps of Groove Armada's - Get Down with it's Jamaican Patois and pumping hard house beats.

Listen - Dave Spoon ft. Lisa Maffia - Bad Girl (at night).

I'm feeling a bit down and I don't know why, which just makes it worse.

My mock exam results come out tomorrow, and maybe subconsciously that could be the reason.

I don't know what I'll do if I've failed, especially as I honestly did think the exam was easy-ish and I did work for it more this time.

Maybe I'm getting revision blues also, and unlike at A-Levels there's less support.
I haven't seen my friends in ages because we all live at different halls and due to the immense work pressure, people come to lectures less and socialise less.
It's so strange how at uni, not seeing someone for a few days seems like not having seen them for weeks.

My friend Sam is annoying me too, you know the one who I didn't want to live with. He'll call up and ask how much I've done and then brag about how much he has done or laugh when I say I'm finding something hard or haven't done something.

It's like for God's sake it's not a competition, good for you if you've done everything and your going to become the best doctor in the world.

He probably doesn't realise but it's really suffocating and annoying...and immature. And I don't function like that, I don't need someone laughing at me when I'm in a down situation...especially as I'd never do that to anyone else.


In other news, I went for coffee with the Medic Family on Tues which was good fun, good to catch up with them and laugh at the parents problems.
I'm so lucky to have really decent, funny people like them as parents, and they've helped us kids so much with advice and notes...I hope I get the opportunity to do that next year.


We have mice, or at least a mouse, in our uni kitchen. Well, judging by the state of it it was only a matter of time.
Even E. Coli find the place too dirty.


I had a great time over the bank holiday - it was CK's dad's 50th birthday so I went to Watford, and got to see my cousin from Canada who's so much fun.
I also met my cousin Dan who I've not seen in probably over a year, and it turns out he's in London now working near Fleet Street.
It was good to catch up, and I'll definately make the effort to meet up with him after the exams.


Well, I'd better get back to work. At least I now feel :-| instead of :-(
Hopefully the Apprentice will make me feel :-)

I'll probably give home a ring too, feel quite bad because I've been snapping at mum through stress a few times when she's rung previously.

It's just she keeps going on about our bathroom - which has been totally made over and looks amazing...but how am I meant to give my opinion if I'm all the way down here in the LDN and have only seen a picture of it?

My sister's in Shanghai on business so I'm missing her a bit.
I'm thinking of telling her something important about personal life stuff...but maybe I should put it off till after exams.


Arrgghh - nothing is ever just good enough is it. There's always a problem with something.
God can't something just go right for once.

Wow. This song is so damn good, and the video....phwoar.

When I first heard it I thought it was the worst thing that these two essentially really good artists could have put together but now I LOVE it.

I think it's a combination between the wicked Run DMC style drum beats and the lovely lyrics.

And the catchy hook ella ella ey ey!

Mark my words - this is going to be a BIG track this summer, and I think, this little star is going to be bigger than Beyonce...

This man is a GENIUS.

It's 1:36 am.

I have a crunchie and a can of magic next to me.

I should be revising Thromboembolisms and reflecting on today's session cutting up Ethel's abdomnen.

But whilst revising 2 songs came on that touched me.

Both reminded me of the end of last Summer, the preparation to come to Uni, and the anticipation, worry, and excitement of what this new chapter of life would bring.

The first - The Guillemot's Trains to Brazil made me feel really sad, and I had to change the track.
It's such a beautiful song, and I don't know why it made me sad but I just can't listen to it.

I think it reminds me of leaving school, friends, and a life that although I was tiring of, was comfortable. All the memories, and also the anticipation of Uni.

The second - Michael Gray's Borderline made me feel really happy.
I remember last year it was my "coming to London track" (for the video obviously), and it then was a symbol of the excitement, independence, freedom and fun to come at Uni, a new start, and in the BEST city in the world.

Both of them made me realise that I'm really settled and happy here now.
To tell the truth even in the second term I hadn't completely settled but now in this third term, I've got housemates, decent friends, and walking around the streets I just keep thinking - this is normal everyday life, I live here, this is my future.

Also, I told my mate about not wanting to live with him and the others and he took it so amazingly well, it was quite a surprising relief.

And finally,

I'm going here...


and here.

F U C -h's-endothelial-dystrophy I hope I pass my exams!