OMG - They made a cartoon about me!

Mr Funkleberry is here!

No, he is not an estranged wizard, or the weird old-man who lives across the road, this is Mr Funkleberry the T-shirt Man!
This rather new and, as the name would suggest, rather funky website caught my eye in the BrandRepublic forum.
I like to buy select items of clothing off the internet for the simple reason that no one else will be wearing them, and was very impressed when this treat popped up on firefox.
Easy to browse and with an amusing attitude, this site provides a refreshing change to some of its rivals.

And the best bit, the designs!
Edgy, retro, daring, comical, all great. All limited edition!
I especially like the "touch me, im famous" one, and can think of quite a few people id like to get the "all mouth" one for. And they come in cool little personalised cardboard boxes with edition numbers on them! How cute.
£25 each is pricey but these are limited edition remeber. Isnt individuality worth a little more?

Its just a shame i found it after Christmas,
oh well, more for me!

Check out their First Ever Collection now.

Revision is a blur

Hello Azuric, how are you today?

Hey blog, not too bad thanks.

Better than last time?

Yes. Im feeling quite content about life, the universe, and everything in general, although i dont know if thats because im in a Strepsil-sedated state, or what. Life has its ups and downs, and i guess that last time i was feeling a bit down.

And why was that?

Because im a teenager? On-off depression and random mood-swings are what we do.
Oh i dunno, i guess i just felt a bit trapped. Theres lots of pressure at the moment, with trying to get into uni and dealing with exams. Im in limbo at the moment, and its horrible, i dont know where i will be next year, i dont have a secure future at the moment, in terms of education. And on top of that, im trapped, or rather facing a drought on the relationship front. I miss having someone to call my lover. I've never had a serious girlfriend, so cant say i miss that, but i know im looking for a relationship right now, if a girl that i had any actual chemistry with came along that is ...
Now this makes me sound really promiscious doesnt it? Even though im the complete opposite.
So anyway, they are the reasons for my sighings, but im just going to take life as it comes, the ups and the downs. I mean thats all you can do right, live with it.

Yes, thats true.

Bye for now blog.

Bye Azuric

Its snowing! Woo-hoo!
Maybe if i didn't have a cold i would maybe possibly go out and do snow related stuff.
But at the moment im sitting here wrapped in a duvet, with an Olbas inhaler up each nostril, overdosing on Strepsils. (And writing this, obviously.)
*Groans*
I have Pharyngitis a.k.a. a sore throat, although i prefer to say pharyngitis because it sounds much more dramatic. Bah' Humbug!

But anyway, Christmas is over! Maybe if it had felt like it had begun in the first place i might have been sad about that, but no.
So, how was it for you? What did you get?

I went to my cousins house this year, every year we alternate. It was quite a strange Christmas this time, but i guess, being multi-cultural, thats kind of expected. On Christmas eve, we had a chicken curry and watched a Bollywood movie, which actually turned out to be quite good. Followed by Home Alone, and then bed. Or should i say sofa.
And then Christmas day was pretty normal, copious amounts of drinks, rediculous amounts of food, and presents! (Further down) The Christmas meal was er...different, we didnt have a turkey. But after having watched "Whats really in your Christmas Dinner" and being subjected to Eastenders AND Corrination Street (incase you didn't see, both had storylines with turkey-cooking-disasters) i think thats a good thing. I dont know how people can watch those soaps, "Why do you watch this crap, honestly, its so depressing" I asked the room, to which my cousin replies, "Cos its depressing it makes our lives look amazing!"
But anyway, back to the meal. Italian, Roast, Chicken, Indian. Mmmmm.
And, if that wasn't strange enough, i was also treated to an Indian Head massage, reflexology, and a manicure!

Presents! Remember when i told you that i had been Christmas shopping and chose my present. Well I can now exclusively reveal that my main present was, *clears throat*, "drum roll please"...
...a black military style jacket from Topman! Its so nice! Had lots of cool silver buttons. And the fitting is great!I can assure you i look amazing in it. But enough of being vain, what else did i get?
2 books, one really good looking one, "Humans, the weird and the wonderful" - all about Medical miracles and unexplained phenomena of Human Biology. And another, "The mammoth book of Dirty, Sick, X-rated & Politically Incorrect Jokes". Hmmmm. Hand-over-mouth shockingly awful "jokes". I think i will ebay that one.
Also, chocs, The OC Mix 2 CD, a pink and grey striped jumper from Topman, half of the Nivea for Men factory, and a "L'Occitane En Provence" shaving stick, more smellies, and some other stuff that i cant remember right now, oh yeah, a pair of Jeans also. Oh yes, and money!

Which brings me to Boxing day. And sales. I managed to pick up a few bargains, some really nice brown avec a light pinstripe trousers from Topman, were £35, down to £15. And also 2 cardigans, one light beigy, and the other burgandy, for £5 each.
And also, before Christmas, because the sales start early now, two shirts from Topman, one a gorgeous chocolate brown, and the other a light greenyblue. Oh, and ties! I got 5 ties. I love ties.

So yes, my wardrobe is almost as bulging as my tummy was on Christmas day. Woo-hoo!
And now all i have to look forward to is revision!

Love Life Update

Oh. My. God.
I. Dont. Believe. It.

I've just had a phone call from another friend. And she told me that she has feelings for me. This is the 3rd friend that has told me that they fancy me this term.

First there was friend A - remember the one who fancied me but who i didnt think of in that way at all, and who supposedly put a note and love hearts through my letterbox, but then it turned out that that was actually some other "friends" who were playing a "joke".

Then there was friend B - a few years younger who fancied me who I havent really mentioned before. Now she kinda avoids me because she found out that i knew that she fancied me.

And now there is friend C - who, not wanting to be like friend A has come right out and told me. Which i really appreciate. But i dont have feelings for her in that way, she just isn't my type.

Also there is friend D whom i secretly lust for, but who has no idea, and who nothing will ever happen with.

Im really flattered by all this, and it is quite a confidence boost: me? really? They all fancy me?
And my sister is envious, "I wish guys were throwing themselves at me like that, your so lucky, just take it as flattery".

But thats just the thing. Im finding it upsetting/worrying.
Firstly because it creates awkwardness, but also because im worried. Im upset that im single. Well im not really, but i'd prefer to have someone (obviously). And these girls are "throwing themselves at me" have expressed an interest in me. But i dont feel that way about them.
Am i being too fussy?
No i dont think so.
What if thats not what i want at all?
And will the person i want come?
And will they want me?
Will i ever find someone to call my lover?

My God i sound desperate.

At one point i knew what i wanted. But now im scared that maybe im starting to not know again.

Sigh

Night night.

Bloody MSN messanger.

"Signing into MSN messanger failed because the service is shit and we are doing "maintenance", sitting around eating doghnuts here at Microsoft HQ.
We know you will try again later anyway though, because no one uses Yahoo messanger even though its so much better."

Grrr! Now I cant make pointless small talk with my friends and family, or try and avoid annoying contacts,
or feel guilty about being "out to lunch" when im not really just so i can ignore annoying contacts and have an excuse.

Oh well.
How strange, it seems no one has been Blogging for quite a while!
Maybe i should start some rumours of their demise...
No doubt everyone is busy with Christmas coming. My Gods its on Sunday!
So doesnt feel like it though, we've been having T-shirt weather! Well, ok...for one day this week we had T-shirt weather for about 2 hours.
But still, no signs of "the worst winter for decades" like everyone was talking about.

So, whats been a happenin' in my lovely blue world?
Remember that friend i told you about, the one that fancied me but i didnt fancy (not to be confused with the friend that i fancy who doesnt know)?
Well anyway, i got a note through my letterbox from said friend today, wishing me a happy christmas, signed with 2 "x"s and a heart with a packet of "Love hearts" sweets.
Arrrgh!! What do i do?! I dont feel the same way. And we have talked about it all. I thought everything was cool. And then this?!
This is the second time in one term that someone who i think of as just friends has declared their deeper interest in me, which has then led to an uncomfortable situation because i dont feel the same way. Its really flattering, but uncomfortable all the same.

Oh, and another thing thats quite worrying, now with regards to the friend that i fancy but that doesnt know, i had a dream about them the other day...and lets just say, it was no ordinary dream...

Ooh! Im fluctuating in the Google charts, remember when i said that i came 3rd for searches for "Azuric" in Google, well the other day, i came 2nd, above azuric.com!
But now, sadly, i seem to have slipped back to 3rd place.

Remember when i said i had done all my christmas shopping?
Well, i lied, then i meant i had done all my friends presents. But yesterday i went out hunting for presents for the family and extended family.
50% success, and with minimal stress or crowd rage, not bad for a first day.
And i got my pressie! Woo-hoo! Its sooo cool! Well, by that i mean i saw it, chose it, tried it on, and have now forgotten about it so i can open it on Christmas morn!
Its soo cool! I love it! And i dont think im going to tell you what it is until after christmas day. Mwahahahahahaha

Any-hoo (Wow! That was subconscious, i normally spell that as "any-who" but being a regular reader of), in other news, i got my hair cut!
Fascinating news i know, was just dying to tell you. I went all short. Mum called me a yob.
Sister thinks i look broader with it. I look much younger than i actually am with it.
And i need to buy a wax stick now. But its funky.

Oh and randomly, i have a new reader person - Rob - Hello! Which reminds me,
where did that Swedish fugitive go?

Anyway, i smell food. Bye bye.

What I did all afternoon...

I think i will take Robs advice....so for now this post has been deleted. Maybe i can make a slightly less sue-able version sometime in the near future.

Oh well.

My sister just asked what I want for Christmas, and my aunt has asked twice this week. I dont really, know what I want, maybe clothes?
But im very particular about what i wear, so maybe vouchers?
But thats boring.
Dvds? Gadgets or Gizmos?
Hmmm dunno.
The truth is, I dont want a lot for Christmas....

There is just one thing that I need,

And I don't care about those presents,

underneath the Christmas tree.

I just want it for my own,

more than you could ever know,

make my wish come true...

All I want for Christmas is a U-niversity offer!

Sorry, it just had to be done.

Okay its now officially Christmas everybody! I just saw the Coca-Cola Christmas advert! You know, the "holidays are commin'" one with the red lorries that light up everything they drive by. Woo-hoo!

Furthermore, we had our "Carol service" today and "Nine lessons with Carols" yesterday. Which made it feel just that lil' bit more Christmasy, and both services included my personal fave carol - "Long ago Prophets new". Arguably not the most Christmasy/classic carol but it reminds me of primary school.
Ahh i love Christmas, its such a great time of year (I say this desperately trying to hold onto my childhood, as every year it feels less and less Christmasy, and im willing to bet that some of you will argue that Christmas becomes more of a pain as you get older). But it is fun, putting up the tree and giving/getting presents and seeing family (those that you actually like) and friends and singing carols and listening to a random brass band in the street play Christmas songs like "Good King Wenceslas". (Wednesday lunch, Mocha in hand - was great!)

And what is this I hear about people complaining and calling for Christmas related stuff to not be called Christmas related anymore but "Winter festival" related stuff instead? What kind of politically correct-ness crap is this?! Its blatantly Christmas if its on the 25th December. And i dont think any other faiths should be insulted by that. Its rediculous for people of other religious/ethnic groups to get offended at Christians celebrating their religion, after all, this is a Christian country, officially. If they dont like it, well...planes leave from Heathrow every 5 minutes. Its like I always say - When in Rome do the Romans...i mean, er...do as the Romans.

I think we should celebrate the good in everything. Hinduism teaches tolerance and appreciation for all other religions and cultures. Some of my friends are envious of the fact that I celebrate both Christmas and Diwali, "so you get 2 lots of presents? Thats so unfair!" - er, yeah, thanks.
The way I see it, God is like a single flame burning in a stained glass candle holder. It is the same one flame, but through every pane, it will be perceived differently. Each pane of glass is a different faith/belief. But God is God, whatever you believe God to be.

So anyway...Ooh! I went to see Narnia today! And what did i think?...
Well it was ok, it was entertaining, i haven't read the books (i know, i know, shoot me) so i cant really compare or rant about how it doesnt do them justice a-la-Harry Potter, but it did seem like some areas of the plot were not developed enough. I liked the Fowl guy - he was funny. And Aslan is great! A talking Lion! Who-woulda-thought-it?! Oh yeah, and the Beavers! They were amusing - although - a Beaver with a Cockney accent in Narnia? Now, a Lion leading a war against some Ice-queen inside a cupboard i can believe, but that was pushing it a bit.

Anyway - my eyes are refusing to allow me to carry on, so im going to leave you with a few random did-you-knows:

• Coca-Cola produced the modern Santa-Claus
• The word "Carol" - is derived from one meaning to dance in a circle
• Carol singers started the tradition of knocking on doors beacuse they were banned from Churches

Nighty-night

So, tell me Azuric, what is on your mind?

Er...where to start? There is quite a bit...i just dont know if i can splurge it all out in this post today.
Im so so tired, and its all so random, I don't know where to begin.

Thats ok, you can say as much or as little as you would like.
And you don't have to start now, take your time.

Thanks. Er...yeah, I think i will slowly, Im just a little unsure of what my inner-most thinkings and feelings are, let-alone blogging them.
Although...writing them down is the best way of thinking about them and piecing everything together.

Yes, you are right. But whenever you are ready, or whenever something comes to mind...

Yeah. Thanks Blog.

Confessions on a blog post

I think actually do fancy my friend.

There i said it!

The feeling has been growing for a long time. And now it is really strong. I dont know what to do. Christmas is coming so that will be a break in which we wont see each other. And after that the next two terms are pretty fractured with exams and stuff.

But still, there's 6 months till school ends. And i obviously do want us to keep in touch, after all, we are friends. But my attraction, and affection towards is based largely on sexual attraction. Although, im not lusting, i do like the personality.

That gorgeous tanned complexion, and that hair, shiny chessnut brown. I catch myself staring sometimes and its really bad. Or when we talk, im allured by those beautiful green eyes, with those lovely lashes, find myself staring right into them. Im finding it so hard to fight the attraction.

It would be so awkward and bad if they found out. I fear that they may already have an idea? But i doubt it. Nah, they definately dont.
And of course the feeling is not mutual.
That cute smile and button nose really gets me though, and that cute rear too!

*Sighs* Why is it that we are always tempted by what we can't have?

Polls!

As i promised...

Azurics Favourite Places:-
(the world is a very big place and unfortunately i haven't seen it all yet, so this is based on places, however big or small, i've been to so far, and was old enough to appreciate)

1. My Bed! - Its warm and comfy, i love to sleep, and well, theres so much more one can do...
2. Kyoto, Japan - So peaceful, full of natural beauty that has been un-touched since ancient times. My favourite memory is sitting on the steps of a Japanese temple, listening to Zero7 - When it falls, looking at the rain falling on the sea of trees that covered the mountains.
3. London - So many memories of day-trips with friends! And such a great place, so much to see, so much to do, it has everything. And the tube! And the red buses! And its so metropolitan...

(well doesn't that make me sound so boring...i know i will think of other places after i've done this...but meh!)

Well, thats it for now, more polls when i think of them!

Number 1

Yay! My blog is officially number 1 for Google searches for "ObscureAzure" !

And, its in 3rd place for searches for "Azuric"!

Damn bloody www.azuric.com and www.azuric.net!

Actually the first thing said is "Did you mean: azurik" No i bloody did not!

Is anyone actually going to search for either of the above? Probably not.

Am i really affected by this fact in any way? No.

Just saw Lost, season 1 episode 20. One of the best eps so far. And really sad. Poor Boone! Why did that have to happen? He was amazing. And quite a main character, its just rediculous. Maybe the actor, Ian Somerhalder fell out with the producers? Who knows...

Oh well, hopefully he will be back on our screens in some other form soon.

Also, during the advert break i was unfortunately subjected to the new Burger King Whopper advert, which is taking advantage of current King Kong mania to sell.

"Go on, KONG YOUR WHOPPER!" - being the tag line. Which immature and idiotic people come up with these crap adverts?
Ooh its an innuendo! Hee hee, its so funny, like watching incontinent old ladies urinating in public! Hee hee hee!
It just reflects the cheap, and dirty nature of the products. At least KFC and McDonnalds have "classy" advertising. I think BK need to do some firing and hiring in their marketing department...if they have one.

Stuart eating toast!

Stuart eating toast!
Originally uploaded by azuric.

The squirrel star of many of my Flickr photos - Stuart, has been coming to our back door since Christmas 04/05, in search of food. Infact, he is now so used to us that he will come right up to us if we're outside and comes running/hopping over to the kitchen door if he sees us inside. He's also learn't to jump onto the door handle or window-sill and sometimes sits there until we give him something.
Today he brought a friend with him to breakfast...so cute!

So it turns out that the "that"/"man-flu" that i talked about in yesterdays post is actually Laryngitis. Ouch! I cant swallow, and apparently it will get worse before it gets better.

Im really depressed. After 2 days post interview blues have set in. Every time i think about it i just think of all the stupid things i said and all the stuff i should/could have said. Grrr!
And other wannabe-medics in my year already have offers. One from UCL! I haven't even heard from them yet. I just really pray that i get 3 more interviews.
Well, they say good things come to those who wait...

Depression is just a state of mind...think positive...blah de blah - all mantras of the Azuric Support Network.

God...in 8 months i will (hopefully!) be at uni...and (maybe) in London. Wow! Lil me...from home straight into the big wide world. How exciting. And possibly really strange. Moving straight from home to uni in London, its going to be really hard...i have absolutely no idea how im going to afford it...will have to get a job obviously. In dreamland as a model - what a chat up line! -

"Hey"

"Hey"

"So, what do you do?"

"Im a full time med student, part time model."

Hehehe, but more likely and still tres cool as a very polite and charming sales assistant in a clothing store - 1 its a fun job, 2 discount on clothes!

And also with this whole new tuition fees thing i wont have to pay fees until after i graduate. And i will also apply for a student loan and London allowance.

But still £120 a week in rent! And thats at the uni halls! Which are essentially just like large cupboards.

Anywho, i better go and Biologise a bit more, and then write some Christmas cards. And read a few blogs maybe.

Until next time, shizzle ma nizzle

Grrr! Im bored. And tired. And am feeling guilty. About all the work that is currently residing on the desk next to me. Which i am not doing.
So, after attempting to procrastinate by wrapping Christmas presents and then finding that i have no wrapping paper with which to do so, I have resorted to Blogging.
That makes Blogging sound like an unappetising second option, which it isn't, because Blogging is so fun. And strangely addictive. So that is why you are reading/skimming over this right now.
And to add to my complaints, i think i've come down with "that". You know, "oh yeah, thats going around at the mo, everyone has it" - "that"/"man-flu" - whatever you want to call it.

But anyway...I've done nearly all my Christmas shopping! Woo-hoo! Avoided the hugely annoying rush job that occured last year - readers, i urge you never never ever ever to leave your Christmas shopping till Christmas eve. Ever. (Now i'll stop before this turns into an All Saints song)

So yeah, what did i buy...2 Cds - Jack Johnson and er...PussyCat Dolls, a Moss jumper, a scarf, a tie, some lip balm, and a candle. I want to keep it all!...except the PCD...and i dont really care too much for the candle or balm either.
Dont really rude sales assistants annoy you? In buying said candle i went into one of those really funky/gadgety independant shops. And the guy behind the counter was so moody, gave me a weird kind of stare when i was browsing, (not wanting to seem arrogant/vain but i dont know, maybe he was checking me out? Im a bit oblivious with things like that, i really dont know) and he had a kind of "yeah im gay and what?!" Daffyd-Thomas-a-la-Little-Britain attitude. Whats wrong with being nice and friendly? It doesnt cost anything, and its the least you can do if im giving you my custom. Instead he just glances up from his magazine and murmurs the price and, i think a thankyou, how lucky i am.
I love those kinds of shops though (funky independant, not avec moody staff). They are nearly always very expensive, but so unique and uber-cool. I think i almost admire the owners, its a brave thing to do, to set up and run your own business, especially if its a specialist one. I would love to own or co-own a business/shop like that one day - possibly an interior design one, like Abode! (check the link in the side-bar)

Woo-hoo number 2: I have also compiled my Christmas songs playlist on iVor, which consists of all the fifty-billion different versions of "Winter Wonderland" and also "All i want for Christmas" and all the others...and strangely Will Young - Leave right now. Because its such a great song. And reminds me of a rather sad time near the new-year's before last, but makes me happy. If that makes any sense/you can relate to that at all.

And i will be decorating my tree this week-end! How exciting, hopefully then it will actually feel like Christmas.
Although...i find out the result of that interview in early Jan, so that is going to possibly "make" but much more likely "break" my new year. And im single. :-( [Insert sarcastic "woo-hoo" here.]

Ah well, "destiny is set in the palm of your hand" as i say, so who knows what/who is round the corner...

Good day, good night, and good morning ;-)
Azuric

I see Surina has been busy podcasting, and she's doing something quite cool, "reading the papers for us" Interesting articles too, i think im going to have to sit on the fence with the Little Britain one, I think some of Hari's arguments are a lil weak, not going to "get the ball of fury rolling" just yet. The Townsend one was funny though.
What does everyone else think? Check out the casts here.

And...I'm Back!

Anyone miss me? Im guessing NO to that, because there are no "good luck" comments attached to the "wish me luck" post. Ehem. *Frowns*

So anyway, the interviews...well, they weren't at all like i nightmared they'd be like. Really relaxed and comfy. But very technical and scientific. Even the "general" one. And very testing. And very hard. But the experience was exciting and fun overall. I met so many people, all really nice too, who had come from all over the globe, from Jersey, to Malasia! And luckily i met no other medics! Which was good because i'd probably have felt really worried if i had met any, incase they had 90 A*s and 20 A levels or had saved 30 children from a burning orphanage in New Guinea, or both!

And the city is so gorgeous. The sight from the bridge over the river on the way to the 17th century old court this morning was beautiful. Ducks and squirrels fumbling around (not together!) and morning dew on the grass. And the buildings, its like Harry Potter land! So amazing to think that the college was built in 1326!
But anyway...getting an offer from there would be a dream come true, and sadly not reality, i have about a 1 in 10 chance. And i dont think im the "1".

Anything happen while i was away? Apart from it obviously not being Double D for anyone else but those bimbos. I think Mr C will do a far better job at reviving the Torie party. And its only his first day and he's already taken a jab at Tony.

Is it weird to like sleeping in other peoples beds? That sounds a little bit "wrong", but. Well. I love my bed (its one of my favourite places in the world! - see later) and everyone was moaning that they couldnt sleep in the rooms at the university. But i had a great sleep. The bed was really comfy. And i always do at hotels. And er...it felt weird to be in someone elses room, but not exactly bad, just strange...im going to stop rambling now.

So i bought a GQ from the station to try to "read" on the train home. I see Beckham has a new fragrance, and a uber-cool "wow" advert to sell it, its so funny, when you see that, and then think of him speaking. And i really cant tell, that Logitech advert - guy in red playing with cool new mouse, on floor with laptop. It looks so much like him, is it David? I mean, he has hair! But the guys face looks so much like his half smile being all cool thing that he does.
Anyway, being the december issue it had all the "best of" this and that of the year stuff in it. Which inspired me to blog my own poll of certain things, like favourite places in the world!. I think things like that are a good insight into personality also. And being on a blog, its not stupidly annoying like those:
"Re: Do this, its like so much fun! And then like send it back to me! Ohmygod, then we will know like trivial crap about eachother! Like how exciting!" emails that you get from people with random questions like "what underwear are you wearing?" - why would anyone want to bloody know that?! ...*thinks*...*checks own* (I bet your at least thinking what yours are like now, hehe.)

Er...where was i? Oh yes, so watch this space for Azuric's "best of" polls, soon to come.
Until then, how for now.

Here goes...

wish me luck...

It was only a chocolate!

Oops.

Sister is tres mardy with me.

Today is the 4th and she still hadn't opened even the 1st door of her advent calendar.
And well, i was in need of some endorphins, and so thought i'd help her along...

I only opened door 1. And i offered her my door 5 for tomorrow. But she is still on the warpath.

Still, i dont think its as bad as the time I accidently told her the ending of Harry Potter 6.

Let It Snow!
Originally uploaded by azuric.

Yay! It's a new month, which means a re-newed upload limit on Flickr. So here are some more 100% original Azuric pictures taken by the blue boy with the black EX-Z40 himself. Be sure to check out the Mt. Fuji pics also....of course, if anyone would like to sponsor me for a pro account, i could bring you wonderful pictures all the time!

iDent

So...what should i "splurge" about today?
Is there any reason to be splurging at all? Apart from the fact that it means im not studying the fascinating world of Grignard Reagents.

Im mighty pissed off.
I never thought i'd say this but...i hate being single. I mean, this is me. I never normally think like this.
But...everyone is in a relationship. Its like being trapped in a valentines day nightmare...P.D.As all over the 6th form centre. It makes you want to gag. Reminds me of a time i was in the childrens section of Waterstones and this couple, man standing behind woman, were playing tonsil hockey. Disgusting.

Don't you just hate it when the things/persons you want, aren't there, and the things/persons you don't really have an attraction to are there.

I think im finally getting tired and frustrated of school and (some) people at school also.
8 years in the same place with the same people. Who think they know you but really, really dont. And who have cryogenically frozen, un-modifyable oppinions of you others. And who are still very immature.
I can't be myself here. I want to go away, to university, and be independant, where no one knows me, and be able to start afresh, and be who i am.